Bad day today. Head aches. Too much to do and no energy with which to accomplish this work.
Two meetings last night. An hours worth of work when I returned home and another two hours this morning. Three meetings scheduled for the SAME TIME on Sunday, and will make part of two of them. A bunch of work to do before one of the meetings, and I will be running the other one. All of this wouldn’t be so bad if it were paid time – but I am in the depths of volunteer overload.
I’m on six or seven committees at church (can’t think straight), two committees for my area’s community association, and I check in on and watch over a (soon-to-be) 99-year-old lady who still lives on her own. All that on top of my “gotta pay the bills” job. I know many others who do much, much more and handle it all with grace and dignity… I don’t think I’m one of those folks. Thankfully one of the most time-consuming committees will end within the month.
Don’t get me wrong – I am working with some incredible individuals with more talent than American Idol (different kinds of talent, tho.) Not only are they all incredibly gifted in so many areas, but they are also the nicest people. My problem, it seems, is that by working and living alone (except, of course for the critters), lots of personal interaction puts me into sensory overload. I’m fine in small groups where I’m not expected to run a meeting, but when people are expecting “stuff” from me other than work-related (after 20+ years I obviously feel incredibly competent in that area) I freak!
So, here it is a beautiful, sunny, tho slightly chilly day. I have boat loads of work to do for which I will eventually get paid when I do it, and all I want to do is stare into spaces and mutter “ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba.”
So, I’m asking for prayers, the energy of the universe, the groundedness of the earth and any other form of positive energy anyone cares to send my way, to get through this with a few brain cells in tact.